Monday, May 25, 2009

It has been a week since I started low carbing back and ha, mixed results!

I started back a week ago. I have good and not so good news. Good news is that I managed to avoid all the nasty symptoms of induction. Bad news is that I only lost 0.5 pounds. But when I plugged the number I realized I was eating way too many carbs and probably a bit too many calories. I was probably subconsciously trying to avoid eating too little carbs so not to bring on onset of nasty symptoms I have been experiencing since last month. I was eating quite liberal amount of frozen blueberries mixed with silvered almonds and buttermilk. Quite yammy. If I learnt one thing is that I can eat healthy mix of things and eat to satisfaction and not gain weight. But for now the idea is to lose and lose quite a lot. So this week I will heat it up a notch to make sure I am in burning mode not maintanance.

Today I ate: So far at least

14 oz cauliflower mixed with 1 oz of baby mozarella and 1 tablespoon of coconut oil
1.5 oz silvered almonds
6 oz of cooked turkey breat
1/2 cup of mixed low carb vegetables
i protein shake

Monday, May 18, 2009

My first day back on low carb wagon! It hurts a bit and I am sluggish!

I am back on low carb. I have had a headacke all day long, not sure if its from switching to low carb and being in ketosis or my ongoing health issues. It was very managable though, pray to God it stays that way and doesnt get any worth.

Here is what I ate:

1 salmon burger with side salad

1 salmon burger with Shirataki noodles with mushrooms

1 salmon burger with Shirataki noodles with mushrooms

1 cup of Organic Kefir with 1/3 cup of organic wild blueberries

I made salmon burgers from Alaskan canned salmon and mixed it with two eggs and half a cup almond flour. I fried it with 3 tablespoon of coconut oil.

I will keep my fingers crossed that induction for the next two weeks will not provoke any health scare as it is a bit of shock to my body. But gotta stay positive!

Friday, May 15, 2009


I am still not fully low carbing yet. But getting there. I am not in a good place healthwise. My symptoms are getting worse and worth and I am trying to figure it all out. I know that they are there to teach me something. I know that it didnt kill me yet, and I know they probably wont. My doctor and few other doctors are clinging to the notion its panick attacks triggered by stress, both psychological and physilogical. But if any of you out there ever experienced full blown panick attack, share your experinces. I am not talking about anxiety here and there or chronic worries, I am talking about panick attack. Here is my experience with them. The other day I had a lot of stress at work to a point where I wanted to just quit. It was just too much to bear. I wanted to fight for myslef, but opted out of it because fighting with my boss can and is more stressful than not. I chose to simply send her email and let her know everything I thought of her. Well it didnt help. She is very stubborn and very self-centerd. Everything that she does wrong is just a learning curve, everything everyone else does wrong is lack of effort. But hey its life. What bothers me at this point is that I cant deal with it in a way that wouldnt bring on debilitationg panick symptoms. I used to ans still am a very standish guy, but whats different is the way my body reacts to me being angry, stressed or anxious. I crave simple life, may be a farm, animals, lots of kids , a lovely wife and no bosses! Lol, may be one day! I decided to start practicing Radical Humility at this point. I think its the only way to happiness for me. I realized I cant be confrantational unless I start smoking weed or be on Valim, lol, either one is not my cup of tea. I remember few years back, more like 15 when I first came here, I was in a stress reduction class. I couldnt quite understand why such a class would be part of college education. I came from a small town in Russia where life was simple, fulfilled and stress-free, unless chasing by a raging bull after you tickled his pride was considered stress. For me it was fun, lol. Oh, those years when you are young, care-free and stupid, where have you gone!

So here we are. Here is an example how bad panick attack can be. I came to work the other day tired. Havent had a good night sleep. It was nighmare. I ate a lot before bed. Then I fell asleep. I had awakened few times from sleep with my heart beating so fast and irregular that my whole body was shaking. I was scared and sweaty. But decided to just overpower the symptoms by going back to sleep and I did. Well, the next day at work I was experiencing palpitations, profusing sweating and an enormous scare. A feeling of impending doom, like God was calling on me to go home, lol. I tried to sit, didnt help. I tried to deep breath, didnt help. Nothong helped. I started panicking. I then jumped into my car and started driving. I didnt know where or why. I just wanted to go and go and go and literally drive those symptoms away. I was crying, I was helpless. I was scared. It was a hellish feeling of desperation and no help. I contemplated on calling "911" but knew fair well that it wouldnt help. Because they would administer saline solution and it would all go away on its own. I was in agony. Finally I called my sister and asked her to meet me outside her place of work. I needed to be with someone I knew. The feeling of dying is so real in panick attacks. My heart was beating irregular and so forcefully. I was hyperventilating and sweating profusely. MY mind was racing all over and I was consumed with terror and feeling of hopelessness. Then I decided to take a beta-blocker my doctor prescribed. In 5 minutes litterally I started feeling better. My heart was slowing down, the mental scare and fog was lifted. I was back on Earth. 30 minutes later all the symptoms were gone but I felt calm and tired. i went home and took the best nap of my life. Half an hour later I was up and running again. Soon I was tired again and my blood pressure was 100/60 . Beta-bloker lowers blood pressure but it was fine. I went to the gym and had the best 20 minutes of weight lifting exercise I had in a while. My heart was not beating strongly, no irregularity and most of all, I was quite strong. It was such a relief and felt as God himslef administerd it. So I am still struggling but will see a speacialist soon that deal with panick attacks. Meanwhile my doctor is doing other tests to rule out any pathology or any other illnesses that might be causing my symptoms. Anyway, thank you all for your continued support and I hope to be food bloggin soon. See you!

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

I am full of it and it doenst want to leave!

I want to thank all of you guys for being so supportive. I have never met any one of you but feel we have known each other for so long. I am still sick or at least I still feel discustingly not ok. I have been to a cardiologist and he found an extra systolic beat in my heart. I did 24 hours holter monitor and it showed infrequent PVC( premature ventricular contraction) . But my cardiologist thinks it might be triggered by some kind of physilogical stress or anxiety. For the past two weeks or so I have been in hell as far as my symptoms. I feel good in the morning and then during the day and at night I feel dead. It all starts with stretching pain in my stomack and I feel bloated. If I sit donw, I am ok, but as soon as I walk up the stairs I feel short of breath, cold sweat and palpitation. I have to immediately sit or I feel like fainting. I take alka-selzer and it helps a lot, but not for long. I have been off the low carb for now but still havent felt any better. I still try to eat mostly lower carb though. I will try to update soon. I just hope it all goes away. I feel full of it!