Sunday, January 29, 2012

If I could select a movie title for my ever ongoing weight loss struggle what would it be?

Hmm, good question Vadim! So what is it? I think the best title for that movie would be Gone with the wind!!!

Every time the wind of change brings some challenging times into my life my weight and therefore my body start to suffer. For years I let my emotional demons, my insecurities and my worries dictate my choices. My choice of food, my choice of work, my choice of partners.

And if there was one thing I could change about myself it would be an ability to believe in myself and my Gods given abilities even when e storm of change comes around bringing winds of fear and unknown. My fat belly, my fat hips is not so much a result of overindulgence and love of junk food per say. It's the direct result of my inability to handle life's changes in a way that I would advice my friends to do. If I only treated myself and my own body as I would my friends or other people that I love and respect.

If I only could start honestly loving myself! After all I think I deserve it. If I honestly could describe the qualities I love about myself it would be a very very long list. Much longer then a list of things I don't. But somehow I chose to focus my subconscious mind on my shortcomings rather cherish my good ones. And I chose to feed my negative emotions instead of learn how to love myself, my body and my imperfections.

Hence all my insecurities and fears. I must change my thinking, both conscious and unconscious. I must nut run from my problems but face them head on. There is no escape in junk any more! It's time to change buddy!

My lovely friend shezug from the the other side of the country challenged me to come up with some sort of challenge for the upcoming week. And I did. I am challenging myself to eat clean low carb food without counting calories or any sort of measurements including scale. And I promised to blog every day. So it starts here. I want to change!

3 comments:

SheZug said...

WOW! You are fast at blogging. Can't wait to read your blog all week.

Remember all those years ago when we all started blogging?

You, me, Oct, Low Carb Daily, Anne H, Harry(JP). We are all still here. Yea, some of us are doing great, some of us are struggling, but we are all here and we are all still going at it and not giving up.

Remember, this will be "FOR LIFE" Prepare for battle and fight fight fight. You will win. Use all your tools, use all your connections. Be online, read blogs, read forums, read recipes, read books, call your friends for support.

Vadim said...

Thanks! Time goes so fast! Where did it go? Scary. Who is in charge? I want to complain. But...... We are not in command even after a glass of wine, lol. I mean not in command of time. So the only thing we can do is to make the best of it!

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