Wednesday, June 5, 2013
Bad habits die very hard! But do they ever die?! I guess in my case not!
I had a wonderful fasting Monday day. Felt great and Tuesday came. It wasn't bad at all till night rolled by and all of a sudden I binged again. Came out of the blue and continued today all day long. It's absolutely insane. It feels like it comes on with a vengeance. That's why fasting is kind of easy and clear. And when I start eating I do ok till I eat the wrong food and then all he'll breaks lose. It's like guilt begets binges which begts more guilt and become a vicious circle. And then off course a promised tomorrow thing comes up in a head! Well, tomorrow I am doing an unplanned fast just to undo the crazy garbage feed of today. I have to and I ll do it two days this time because Friday is my planned fasting....Oy Wei!