Sunday already? Ok, then I am posting my meals!

10 am-

1 cup of cottage cheese= 150 calories
2 tablespoons of organic cocoa ( aka Harry's magic friend )= 100 calories
1 packet splenda


2 pm-
russel stove sugar-free chocolate covered almonds for 4 = 400 calories
russel stove sugar-free chocolate covered caramel candy for 4= 390 calories


6 pm-
6 oz turkey breast= 300 caloies
1 tablesppon wasabi mayo= 100 calories
2 tablesppon of chicken paste with Parchini and Truffle mushrooms= 200 calories



10 pm-
russel stove chocolate covered almond for 4= 400 calories
russel stove peanut butter cups for 3 = 420 calories


1 am-
bread= 150 calories ( first time in a long time)
2 tablespoon chicken paste with Parchini and Truffle mushrooms= 200 calories
1 tablespoon of almond butter= 200 calories


TOTAL CALORIES=2995 CALORIES


OK, that was the last day of not so goodskiy week. Hopefully it is behind and over with. Lets see how the next week turns out to be. One meal at a time to the winning two weeks! I must go on and it must be concured, but if I fail this time the show will be cancelled and I will go back to what worked all along, low carb Atkins style liberal amount of real food! Cheer me on people, play fanfare! What time is it? I cant hear you guys? I said what time is it? Time to kick my fat butt and my fat cells and show them who the boss in the house really is! enouph said, lets go to work!

THE SHOW MUST GO ON! SATURDAY MENU, I WANT MY MONEY BACK!

OK, today wasnt my proudest day accomplishment wise. I woke up feeling better, but still only managed to get 4 hours of sleep. I knew it was going to be a busy day! I spent at least an hour going over my mistakes and contemplating what to do next. First, I went back and tried to remember what strategy worked best for me in the past! And then it hit me! I know why this particular challenge was a failure from a get go! By nature I cant stand anything that restricts my nature or my body. I always hated ties, button up shirts, and all kinds of jewelry! Few weeks ago one girl made a joke about my inability to keep or wear jewelry! I said to her that I couldnt stand wearing anything on my body and that I always had touph time keeping anything jewelry or not on it! She sarkastically lloked at me and said " No wonder you cant keep a girlfriend either "! I thought, and thought and thought! And there it was, an answer staring me right in my stubborn face! Low carb Atkins style diet! That was the diet that best suited me! I lost so much on it and the reason for that was that I didnt try to restrict either amount of food ( low carb ) or calories. And the genious of high fat, low carb lifestyle is that by not restricting calories and being able to eat liberally, calories were restricted naturally. Even when I was a very young boy it did work that way! I have and always be very observant and curious! And my mom knew it. So if she didnt want me to do something, she would just allow me to do it anyway in unlimitted amount. And eventually I would just lose intrest and stop doing it. But the more people limitted me, the more rebelous I would become and resist it! So my answer is not to restrict but allow! And by allowing I do restrict! Thats it, thats simple and yet so genious! So I am changing my plan! I will still finish the challenge but now with few changes! I will only make it two weeks! Thats more then enouph. I will not limit the amount of shakes I can drink. It will be all I want protein shakes to keep me satisfied, instead of 5. One meal will still remain intact! So those are the changes! I will go on though with this challenge until I concur this bull! There is no way in hell I am giving ip ! I must go on, and on I am going! And after two weekd it is back to Atkins brand of food. Liberal amount of high fat, moderate protein and low carb meals! But not unitl I finish this animal first.


Saying all that I forgot to post my meals today. It was a horrible day nutritionally! I knew it was going to be. It was my nephew Bday and I promised myself to let myself go today. I needed it! I kind of compromised with my demons today. But tomorrow its back to battlegrounds again. There will only be one winner, one king standing and hopefully it is me and not my demons! I feel strong again, I have got my new weapons and ready and willing to go on! Let the show begin!\



!0 am-
2 russel stove sugar free chocolate covered almonds= 760 calories



6 pm-
My nephew Bday
I ate high carb junk , first tiem in a long time now. I ate at least 4 or 5 pieces of home made cake.



8 pm-
Hagen dauz ice cream bar



10 pm-
1 cup of cottage cheese



THE SHOW MUST GO ON! THE SHOW MUST GO ON! THE SHOW WILL GO ON!

A JOURNEY OF A THOUSANDS MILEBEGINS WITH THE FIRST STEP! MY FIRST STEP IS POSTING TODAY MENU!

God speaks in silence! I hear him now all over my soul! I was tired coming home from work. Not tired physically but more like drained emotionally! I failed again and this time it is eating me alive. My whole foundation has shaken. It is such a struggle to just admit this strategy hasnt worked, and just give it up. But for some reasons I couldnt just abandon this challenge. I kept asking " why? What is it that makes me so damn stubborn! For the first time I just closed my eyes and asked God for answers! No, I didnt even ask, I just invited silence! I always disliked meditation, massages and all sort of things that relax me! I couldnt stand being relaxed, being calm , being still! I was known as a crazy, hyper guy! But today I was ready for silence! Silence, even if it meant just closing my eyes for a minute and think nothing, say nothing, just listen for the silence! And as weird as it might be I just broke down in tears. Out of the blue tears just rolled down my eyes. And at the end I felt better! And I got my answers! I felt so relieved, yet so scared! I knew why I was so stubborn to just give it up. This challenge wasnt about weight loss or fat cells or muchiness. It was about my whole life, my past relationships, my mistakes, my failed expectations. Consciously I am just a big, strong guy, but subconsciously I am weak, lonely and full of doubts! I felt like a failure so many times in my life, yet I was never to talk about it. It was taboo to even admit it to myself, forget about others. And today, not only I am admitting it to myself, but to others who are listening! I put up a great fasade, a defense fence to shiled me from pain and sufferings. Hence the inability to relax, failed relationships, gained weight. Was I really that hungry at nights or was it that I was feeding my pain and loneliness and failures. I didnt know why would it happen at night?Now I know. What does night represent? Calmness, quietness, silence! And why was I so afraid and uncomftable of meditation, massage and all relaxation things? Because it represented what a night stood for, same things! I wasnt ready to look deep inside my soul and admit that I needed some big, major changes. It was change I was afraid of all along. It was easy, comftable and convenient to just put up a fence and eat my way to sleep. Then next day, long crazy hours, running around, eating lots of junk. Then more running, more eating and more running! Everything to escape the silence! Silence I was not ready to deal with! And when silence came rolling around I attemted to chase it away with FOOOOOOOD! I dont know what tomorrow will bring. I dont know if I will start changing! Is it time for me to get off this challenge and just admit I failed to only begin a new challenge? I dont know. I dont want to give up. Too many times I ran away to only realize it is very hard to run away when the person who I am running away from is staring me right back in the mirrow every morning that I shave. May be thats why I havent shaved for the past 5 days! Getting off this challenge means everyhting and nothing! If you change the way you look at things, things you look at change! But am I ready to change the way I llok at things? I am so sick and tired being touph all the time, running around, not being able to relax. On one hand I think change I am ready for. But on the other change I am ready to run from. My heart is full of love and at times I feel I am ready to love and be loved. I cant stand being lonely. Yes I have lots of friends, supportive family and great job. But I dont have the love, the love that I so much need and crave! Love for myself first and foremost! So today I made a first step! Will there be a second, third or 100 th? I surely hope so! But I will take it one day at the time and one meal as well! I am just so blessed to have found this website! I am thankful to Jimmy and to all of you guys for so much support! You are a great bunch of people, you dont judge , you dont redicule! You support and try to help! I appreciate it more then any words can say! This was the day! We will see what tomorrow will bring!

10 am-
3 packages of Russel Stove chcolate covered almonds, peanuts and caramel ( I felt like Energizer Vadim and Bunny together, lol I was running and running and running!)
= 1200 calories


4 pm-
6 oz ground chicken = 300 calories

6 pm-
2 scoopes of whey protein= 150 cal
1 glass of water
2 tablespoon of flax= 60 clories


8 pm-
6 oz turkey breast= 350 calories
1 hot dog= 200 calories
2 tablespoon of mayo= 300 calories



1 am-
1.5 cup of cottage cheese= 280 calories
Devinchi syrip 1 oz= o calories
1 cup of blueberries= 70 cal
3 fried ags in olive oil= 350 calories
4 oz chicken cuttlet= 250 calories
2 oz turkey breast= 100 calories



TOTAL CALORIES= 3550
TOTAL EFFORT= DO I REALLY NEED TO SAY IT?

Why are jewish men circumsized? Thursday menus!

Great, now jewish jokes! Why are jewish men circumsized? Because jewish women refuse to touch anything unless it is 20 % off or more!


What does it have to do with me, you ask? Everything and nothing! Why do my fat cells have so MANY soldiers that they put up a great fight to give them up? I dont know, but am sure I need to find out very soon! If I didnt make any sense up to now, it makes sense. It is 2 am in NYC and I have been sleep deprived for the past week. Ok, back to the joke and my fat cells. What I was trying to say basically is that i need to circumsize my appetite big time, otherwise what I am doing to myself is not going to be very Kosher! I was doing great all day until night creeped quitely onto my body. And then It hit me! It hit me big time! It was very strong and It was very demanding, and It was relentless, and It broght Them! It and Them were attacking me from all angels, until I finally asked for mercy. It and Them! They won today! It was hunger and them were my fat cells! I couldnt fall asleep. I said no way, no how I am eating at 12 am. I was counting stars, didnt help! I was on a warm Hawaii beach looking at the stars, didnt help! I was Bradd Pitt and she was.... never mind, ok thaqt helped a bit, but not for long! And then I got up, and went quitely into the fridge. I looked ever so innocenly into the choices and then...... I was off and running with food! I gave up tonight! I gave in to fat cells! I felt shameful, weak and not Kosher! Kosher it wasnt, but it was human and it was low carb my way! I am still fighting this war hard, I won few battles and lost few others. but the war is far from over! Just time to regroup, restructure and refocus! I did a major mistake by skipping lunch and basically dinner. I was busy, very busy! Work demand are growing expadentually with impendin g Holidays and I am trying to be the MAN! So no more skipping meals! I cant stand to loose any more! It makes me craaaaaaaaazy! I know I can do it and I know it will, even if it means i have to suck on those ascorbic acids ( vit c ) until my mucosa of the tongue bleeds! I did once and it worked great. It does work, but it is not Kosher either! May be I am craving for love, could it be? I broke with my ex after we had a fight and as I was walking away from it letting her win, she said "' Thats not how normal people fight''' I ddint say nothing at that moment realizing she was right, thats not how normal people fight, they just dont fight! She wasnt Kosher and I sent her to archives! I dont know why I cant seem to control the hunger at night, is it my subconscious mind? Are my insecurities acting up if I have them? May be repressed memories, oh God I have a few! Is it that I am craving to beloved, by me? Love my body? I never seemed to accept who I was and how my body looked! May be it is time for me to be Kosher! And that means lots of circumsizing! I must circumsize my insecurities, I must circumsize my low body image, I must circumsize my demons! And you know I will! Ok, if you still made it this far reading all of it, you are either crazy or a trully caring person and I will definitely not circumsize you!!!! Because you are allready Kosher!




11 am-

2 scoops of Chocolite whey protein= 150 calories
1 glass of Countdown milk= 100 calories
1 tablespoon of cocoa= 50 cal
2 tablespoon of light organic coconut milk= 50 cal
1/2 cup of blueberry= 50 cal




1 am-

20 scallops wrapped in bacom= 1000 calories ( rouph estimate ) they werent big, it was just lots of them, lol!

1.5 cups of cottage cheese= 300 cal
2 tablespoon of almond butter= 200 cal
2 meatballs small= 180 calories
4 oz turkey breast = 200 caloris
1 cup of cauliflower= 200 calories



TOTAL= 2480 CALORIES
TOTAL EFFORT= ENOUPH TO CAUSE CLINICAL DEPRESSION!



CAN I REBOUND TOMORROW? OR DAMN RIGHT I WILL! YES I CAN, YES I CAN, YES I CAN!

Battle for attention! Fat cells vs emotional monsters!

Guess what people, today was a battle of my evil, lovable , hugable demons trying to decide who will get my attention! And you know what happened? Follow along, I will tell you .......


12 pm-
8 0z of Countdown chocolate milk= 100 calories' carbs= 3
2 scoops of Chocolite whey protein= 150 calories; carbs=8 ; fiber = 3 grams



5 pm=
I have no idea how much in calories I cunsumed, so I will just list the amount and kind of food

25 Kosher bacon wrapped scallops
4 oz of roast beef
3 thyes of jerk chicken
3 mini hot dogs


6 pm-
6 pieces of jerk chicken
5 more of the best ever tasting Kosher bacon wrapped scallops




1 am-
1/2 cup of cottage chees
1 cup of Countdown chocolate milk
2 tablesppon of almond butter




Ok, it might seem like I ate a lot, and I did but...... I was invited to the one and only once a year President's Holiday Party! There were bunch of ass..... and ass sympathizing people there that I try to avoid on regular bases. There was so much fakeness and ass kissing gooing around that even politician would look like Saints next to them. Oh my Lord, I felt like a virgin all over again. I was so out of place sitting at the table with all these , how do I put it politically correct, know it alls that I almost puked literally! I was the only one eating low carb mind you. You dont even know how many "' Do you know bacon causes heart attacks " I got. So I swore for every time someone will mention anything about bacon causing artery clogging effect I will get up and get another bacon. So hence so many Kosher, artery clogging, and comment provoking pigs in the blanket! Eventually someone got the point and we started talking how great Obama is. I swear these people go from one extreame to another. Mind you, I work at Suny Downstate ( world famous medical instituition ) hence most of them were world's class doctors. And there we went with Obama, how great he is, how great he was and how great he is going to be! So eventually I swore next time someone will mention Obama name one more time I was going to eat another pig in the blanket, yes, that Kosher, artery clogging bacon. Eventually they stopped talking about Obama and went back talking about how artery clogging bacon was. At that moment President started speaking and I was long gone.....so cant tell you the rest of the story... Except that my emotional demons and fat cells were pretty happy today and trully got my attention!
1 packet of truvia

Tuesday menu! FAT CELLES ( 1 ) VS VADIM ( 1 )

HEY I KNEW IT WASNT GOING TO BE A CLEAN, PICTURE PERFECT WAR! SO TODAY FAT CELLS GOT BACK RIGHT IN IT AND ATTACKED FULL FORCE, BUT...... I WEATHERED THEIR STORM AND ALTHOUGH DIDNT QUITE GET IT DONE 100 PERCENT THE EFFORT I GAVE WAS INDEED A GOOD ONE.BUT ITS A TIE!


12PM-
8 oz Countdown chocolate milk= 100 calories; carbs=3 grams
2 scoops of Worlds best tasting Chocolite whey protein= 150 calories; protein=24 grams; carbs= 8 grams; fiber= 5 grams
1 tablespoon of pure unsweetened oraganic cocoa= 40 cal; carb= 5 grams; fiber= 3 grms
1 0z nuts =170 cal
1 package of Truvia= o cal; tons of sweetness ( mix of stevia plus erythritol )


Big shake for breakfast, but hey its a War, I need energy people!



3 pm=

8 oz Countdown chocolate milk= 100 calories; carbs=3 grams
1 scoop of Isopure whey isolate chocolate protein= 110 cal; carb=0; protein=22 grams
1/2 cup blueberries= 40 cal; carb= 5 grams
1 oz almonds=175 calories; carbs =6' protein=6



6 pm-
8 oz Countdown chocolate milk= 100 calories; carbs=3 grams
1 scoop of Isopure whey isolate chocolate protein= 110 cal; carb=0; protein=22 grams
1/2 cup blueberries= 40 cal; carb= 5 grams
1 oz almonds=175 calories; carbs=6' protein=6



8 pm-

4 strips of cheese form various pizzas at work patry ( Yes, I got people to look at me like I was an allien and one woman made a smart comment =, but hey .....)= 8 oz= 800 calories; carbs= 8 grams' protein= 40 grams




10 pm-
3 oz of roasted beef=200 calories; carbs=0 ; protein=20
2 oz chiken dark meat= 140 cal; protein= 14 grams



1 am- FAT CELLS WENT ON ATTACK!! COULDNT FALL ASLEEP AND STOMACK WAS DANCING AND SINGING.... FEED ME MAN, FEED ME MAN, FEED ME FEED ME NOW!!!!!

3/4 CUP OF Cottage cheese= 180 cal; carb=5 ; protein=20
1.5 oz almonds= 250calories; carbs=9' protein=9
4 oz countdown milk= 50 calories= 1.5 carbs= protein=4
2 tablesspoon of almond butter= 250 cal; carbs= 10 grams; protein= 6 grams
1 tablesppoon of cashew butter=170 cal; carbs = 7; prtoein=5


TOTAL CALORIES= 3165 CALORIES
TOTAL NET CARBS= 60 GRAMS
TOTAL PROTEIN= 220 GRAMS

THAT WAS THE DAY WHEN FAT CELLS RESISTED, BUT I PUT UP A FIGHT! MAY BE NOT THE BEST FIGHT OR BEST STRATEGY OR BEST TIMING, BUT HEY IT TAKES TIME. OVERALL I THINK EFFORT AND SELF CONTROL WAS THERE. I DIDNT LET MYSELF FALL ON MY FACE, I DID FALL MSTLY ON MY BUTT. I AM UP NOW, AND READY TO GO ON BROTHERS AND SISTERS!

DAY 1 VADIM VS FAT CELLS AND EMOTIONAL MONSTERS! FINAL SCORE VADIM (1 ) - FAT CELLS (0 )

10 AM-
2 SCOOPS OF CHOCOLITE WHEY PROTEIN ( BY THE WAY VERY TASTY ) I BUY IT ON NETRITON.COM AWESOME TASTE!= 150 CALORIES; PROTEIN= 24 GRAMS; CARBS= 8 GRAMS; FIBER =5 GRAMS
10 OZ OF LOW CARB COUNTDOWN MILK= 120 CALORIES; CARBS= 3 GRAMS
2 TBSPOON COCOA= 80 CALORIES; CARBS= 10 GRAMS; FIBER=6 GRAMS


2 PM-
8 OZ WATER
1 SCOOP OF ISOPURE CHOCOLATE WHEY PROTEIN= 120 CALORIES; CARBS=O; PROTEIN= 22 GRAMS
1 TABLESPOON OF COCOA= 40 CALORIES; CARBS= 5 GRAMS; FIBER= 3 GRAMS


5 PM-
8 OZ WATER
1 SCOOP OF ISOPURE CHOCOLATE WHEY PROTEIN= 120 CALORIES; CARBS=O; PROTEIN= 22 GRAMS
1 TABLESPOON OF COCOA= 40 CALORIES; CARBS= 5 GRAMS; FIBER= 3 GRAMS
1/2 CUP OF BLUEBERRIES= 40 CALORIES; CARBS= 5 GRAMS


7 PM-
1 CUP BROCOFLOWER PASTE= 300 calories; carbs= 14 grams;FIBER=-7 GRAMS protein=17 grams
3 oz of turkey breast=100 calories; protein=5 grams


9 pm-
8 0z water
2 scoops of chocolite whey protein = 150 calories; protein=24 grams; carbs= 8 grams; fiber= 5 grams


10 pm-
4 oz of chicken ( breast, back )= 300 calories; protein=30 grams
1.5 oz almonds= 270 calories

TOTAL CALORIES=1870 CALORIES
TOTAL CARBS=58 GRAMS( FIBER= 29 GRAMS)
TOTAL PROTEIN= 136 GRAMS
TOTAL EFFORT= 100%
TOTAL WATER INTAKE= 96 OZ

EXERCISE= 45 MIN OF LOW INTENSITY CARDIO AND 30 MIN OF HIGH INTENSITY WEIGHT TRAINING