OK, today wasnt my proudest day accomplishment wise. I woke up feeling better, but still only managed to get 4 hours of sleep. I knew it was going to be a busy day! I spent at least an hour going over my mistakes and contemplating what to do next. First, I went back and tried to remember what strategy worked best for me in the past! And then it hit me! I know why this particular challenge was a failure from a get go! By nature I cant stand anything that restricts my nature or my body. I always hated ties, button up shirts, and all kinds of jewelry! Few weeks ago one girl made a joke about my inability to keep or wear jewelry! I said to her that I couldnt stand wearing anything on my body and that I always had touph time keeping anything jewelry or not on it! She sarkastically lloked at me and said " No wonder you cant keep a girlfriend either "! I thought, and thought and thought! And there it was, an answer staring me right in my stubborn face! Low carb Atkins style diet! That was the diet that best suited me! I lost so much on it and the reason for that was that I didnt try to restrict either amount of food ( low carb ) or calories. And the genious of high fat, low carb lifestyle is that by not restricting calories and being able to eat liberally, calories were restricted naturally. Even when I was a very young boy it did work that way! I have and always be very observant and curious! And my mom knew it. So if she didnt want me to do something, she would just allow me to do it anyway in unlimitted amount. And eventually I would just lose intrest and stop doing it. But the more people limitted me, the more rebelous I would become and resist it! So my answer is not to restrict but allow! And by allowing I do restrict! Thats it, thats simple and yet so genious! So I am changing my plan! I will still finish the challenge but now with few changes! I will only make it two weeks! Thats more then enouph. I will not limit the amount of shakes I can drink. It will be all I want protein shakes to keep me satisfied, instead of 5. One meal will still remain intact! So those are the changes! I will go on though with this challenge until I concur this bull! There is no way in hell I am giving ip ! I must go on, and on I am going! And after two weekd it is back to Atkins brand of food. Liberal amount of high fat, moderate protein and low carb meals! But not unitl I finish this animal first.
Saying all that I forgot to post my meals today. It was a horrible day nutritionally! I knew it was going to be. It was my nephew Bday and I promised myself to let myself go today. I needed it! I kind of compromised with my demons today. But tomorrow its back to battlegrounds again. There will only be one winner, one king standing and hopefully it is me and not my demons! I feel strong again, I have got my new weapons and ready and willing to go on! Let the show begin!\
2 russel stove sugar free chocolate covered almonds= 760 calories
My nephew Bday
I ate high carb junk , first tiem in a long time now. I ate at least 4 or 5 pieces of home made cake.
Hagen dauz ice cream bar
1 cup of cottage cheese
THE SHOW MUST GO ON! THE SHOW MUST GO ON! THE SHOW WILL GO ON!