Thank you all from the bottom of my heart!

I want to express my deepest gratitude and appreciation to all of you guys for you support and kind words!

All roads lead to death! But timing of it is crucial!

I am going through one of the most difficult period of my life. My Mother have been having flank pain under the ribs on the right side for 4 months now with accompanied fever. She had done some test but nothing was specific enouph to diagnose a problem. I took her to ER last friday and they found multiple nodules-lesions on her liver and both lungs. She has always been a glue of our family and a survival of two cancers before. I just hope and pray that there is small chance it could be infection or something treatable. I will start video bloggin soon!

Doctor, can you diagnose me as weird and not a failure?

I want to share a nice joke I once read. It is in russian so I hope it doesnt lose a meaning in translation. Here it is! A young woman goes to a doctor and complains that her husband cant satisfy her. The doctor sais" Well, why dont you find yourslef a lover then? A woman replies" I did, and he doesnt hit the spot either" Well, sais a doctor why dont you find a second one? A woman sais " I have four of them , and none can really satisfy me. You know what sais the doc, you are very strange! Thanks God doctor sais the woman! Can you give me this diagnosis in writing that I am strange because everyone keeps saying I am slut!!!!! Well, I have failed again! I gained 5 pounds back. And it is getting personal to a point where I am not angry but rather curious. I wont call myself weird or a failure! I must learn myself and understand why I subotage myself the way I do and how to keep emotional eating at bay! So this is my next trial. I hope to blog soon again and keep it somewhat consistent. If there is anyone still listening, thanks! And I do mean it from the bottom of my heart!

So much to share, so little time!

Ok guys, as pormised I am writing this very post. Lots of things changed since I last wrote the post. I now do own a wondeful Ragdoll baby boy. He is full of energy, spunk and attitude. But he is simply an invaluable addition to my family. He is a pain in the rear side at times but what a gift! I had to drive 5 hours away to get him from a breeder. Ragdolls are hard to come by where I live and I wanted to make sure I got him from a reputable place. I know some people will never understand why buy a kitten instead of rescuing one, but both I and my parents are very inexperienced cat owners and adopting a cat can and is very challenging at times. Raising a baby is much easier as he is still litte and growing up. He is still full of challenges but I am so happy to have him. His name is Saadya and I will post pics of him soon. Did you know that there is just as much controversy in the cat food industry world about whats to feed a cat as in human one. Lots of cats are coming up with same diseases as humans, especially diabetes. Know why? I think you probably do. Becuase many cat food manufacturers are using soy, corn meal and other cheap carb substitutes to make the food. And cats, unlike humans are completely carnivores not omnivores. So I had to buy him much more expensive food which is the lowest carb content on the market. So, yes, my cat is on the low carb too!


Ok, now a bit of update about me. My symptoms of irregular heart beat, tachycardia, headackes and general fatigue seem to subside and walk away, knock on wood. I am pretty sure that all that scare was attributed to induction. At least thats my biggest hope. For the first 3 days I had no appetite and felt completely awful,so bad that life itslef seemed like punishment. Thanks God I am better now. I will continue to blog my menus and my struggles, but forgive me if i miss a day or two, lol or week!


My weight is 230 pounds now! I did lose 5 pounds but need to lose 60 more.


Today I ate:

Breakfast: 2 chicken meatballs with spinach, artichoke and sun dried tomatoes
1/2 cup of mushrooms
2 oz pistachio nuts


Lunch: 1 can of water packed sardines with avocado, roasted pepper and grilled eggplant slices and squash



Dinner: 1 can of water packed sardines with avocado, roasted pepper and grilled eggplant slices and squash

I will be back tomorrow!

I am fine, my cat is a joy and I will be back tomorrow blogging! I am honored to still have you guys believing in me and checking on me! Thanks!

I must get this fat monkey off my back!

I dont know if anyone is even listening at this point, but just in case anyone is here is whats been happening. I have been on a relatively low carb regimen and it worked fine, but no weight loss. I did eat to satisfaction and even a bit more at times. I enjoyed it too. I ate sweet tasting food and loved it. I would eat wholesome food as well but needed to supplement it with sweet tasting snacks and mostly at night. I loved low carb carb countdown chocolate milk sweetened with stevia and mixed with frozen berries and silvered almonds. But weight loss it wasnt. My health scare seemed to subside. It was truly scary and very debilitating. I dont know what it was and will keep praying its over. But here is my resolution for the next two weeks. I need to start reducing waist wise and fat wise. I need to stop using sweet tasting food and go to the foundation Atkin based induction for at least two weeks to get my weight on downward trend. So starting Friday I will embark on two weeks Atkins induction and I pray I will not go through induction flu that will bring on those scary irregular heart beats and extreame fatigue. But somehow I think it wont. So beginning Friday I will blog my new journey every day. If anyone is still listening off course!

It has been a week since I started low carbing back and ha, mixed results!

I started back a week ago. I have good and not so good news. Good news is that I managed to avoid all the nasty symptoms of induction. Bad news is that I only lost 0.5 pounds. But when I plugged the number I realized I was eating way too many carbs and probably a bit too many calories. I was probably subconsciously trying to avoid eating too little carbs so not to bring on onset of nasty symptoms I have been experiencing since last month. I was eating quite liberal amount of frozen blueberries mixed with silvered almonds and buttermilk. Quite yammy. If I learnt one thing is that I can eat healthy mix of things and eat to satisfaction and not gain weight. But for now the idea is to lose and lose quite a lot. So this week I will heat it up a notch to make sure I am in burning mode not maintanance.


Today I ate: So far at least

14 oz cauliflower mixed with 1 oz of baby mozarella and 1 tablespoon of coconut oil
1.5 oz silvered almonds
6 oz of cooked turkey breat
1/2 cup of mixed low carb vegetables
i protein shake