Monday, March 2, 2009

I dont know what to say at this point!

I had a relaxing weekend and drank a lot. I havent drank for a looooooooong time and quit smoking a while back too. But being an emotional person always required some kind of vent out. That role has been given to either food or smoking. Since I stopped smoking, food has become a friend at times of stress. And wrong food that is as we all know. Last night I was stressed out over my blood test result. My doctor informed me that my potassium level was up along with blood urine nitrogen level. He is concerned it might be decreased kidney function and advised me to stop low carbing for at least a while. He has always been a low carb critic. So I ate and ate and ate out of frustration! And wrong food that is as we all know. I will not listen to anyone any more, I will eat natural food and stop protein shakes for a while. I will stop eating all the wrong food that I know and you know and even my doctor knows is bad. So whatever it is I will try to keep sharing with you guys. I dont know what tomorrow will bring on many levels. I am having lots of arguments and dead end tasks from my boss. She is pregnant and out of control. I cant reason with her any more. She has driven me insane. I keep it all inside and given the fact that she is pregnant does preclude me from opening my big mouth. So I am taking a high road. But situation is hitting up. She gave me a bad performance evaluation and that sucks a lot. I have lots of students vouch for me and support me, which is the most important thing, but I might still start looking for a way out. I cant stand being miserable and stressed out at work. its like a bad marriage! But what am I to do? I have bills to pay and obligations to see through. Who knows, I am sure the answer is there!

3 comments:

NewVision said...

Vadim,
I'm so sorry about your bad news. I hope the levels improve soon. Please keep us informed.

Maybe after your boss has the baby it will get better for you. How many more months does she have? Just keep positive and don't think about the negative. Hang in there.

(((HUGS)))

Vadim said...

Thanks Jo! I hope so too! I need to start looking for another direction though just in case she doesnt!

Harry said...

Vadim,

I too am sorry for this new stressor.

Is there any history of kidney problems in your family? Is this the first time you had any result like this?

Would it be possible for you to get a second opinion - just to get a more well-rounded opinion about what may be going on?

Maybe, just maybe, this will turn out to be a fluke test result. But whether it is or is not ... please use this as an incentive to treat yourself and your body with extreme kindness. Good can come out of this!

Hang in there, my friend. And please keep us posted. We care about you and want you to be well. :)