Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Back to square one!

I had a rough week recently and did slip off the plan. My Mother had a setback with her chemotherapy and was not tolerating new chemo very well. It put a lot of stress on me and my sister to see her suffer so much. For all of you who dont know my mother is going through a lot. She has been diagnosed with metastasized colon cancer, probably 4 st stage with possible spread to the lungs. She does have a huge mass in the liver. She had a surgery to implant a pump through her hepatic artery to feed chemo directly to the tumor cite. But she developed some post surgery complications and it took her much longer to recover. Then her surgeon came out and told me that if chemo doesnt work she has only few motnhs to live. That was sucha bummer considering how much my mom means to me. She has always been my best friend and life without her is like living without a sun! But I will not let this tumor get her donw and we will fight it to the best of both of our abilities. Its easier said than done and it is much more difficult for her than all of us. So recently her oncologist added another chemo drug that made her feel so lousy she needed hoospitalization. But again we will do our very best and I am ever so hopeful she can come out of it! Unfortunately that took some toll on my diet again. Off course it would be an excuse and i would never even think of using my failures on my mom's sickness. Life happens to all of us and it is our determintation and resolve that seperates loosers from winners and men from boys. So I havent grown up yet as far as this challenge goes. That being said i am not giving up! Back to square one and today was my first day being back on 6 weeks cure challenge! it was tough as I am still struggling to keep my emotional eating in check and my physilogical hunger at night. But its one day at a time!


1 pm- Isopure whey protein( 2 scoops)=
2 TBSP of heavy cream 1/2 cup of frozen strawberries=
1 scoop of Amazing chocolate super greens
1/2 tsp of flavored flaxseed oil
1 packet stevia


5 pm- Isopure whey protein( 2 scoops)=
2 TBSP of heavy cream 1/2 cup of frozen strawberries=
1 scoop of Amazing chocolate super greens
1/2 tsp of flavored flaxseed oil
1 packet stevia


10 pm- Isopure whey protein( 2 scoops)=
2 TBSP of heavy cream 1/2 cup of frozen strawberries=
1 scoop of Amazing chocolate super greens
1/2 tsp of flavored flaxseed oil
1 packet stevia

12 am- 2 eggs and 3 beef hot dogs

4 comments:

Harry/JP said...

Vadim,

Your strength inspires me. It really does. I truly respect your persistence - even in the face of the most difficult of times. I will learn from you and this example.

Please keep at it, set backs and all. It'll only do you and your family (and everyone that cares about you) good. The example you can set is a gift. Never forget that. You know and I know it.

PS - What do you think about the greens?

PPS - I'm formulating a new plan for my menu blog. It will continue in a new and improved way ... as you say. :-)

~Oct said...

My prayers and wishes for your mom's recovery are going out to you Vadim. Hang in there, she sounds like a strong lady and it's apparent that you love her very much.

Your shake recipes look great!

Nancy said...

how blessed you are to have such a wonderful mom, she's been such a good example to you, and you'll probably be (or maybe are) this important to someone yourself. To me thats a big deal. My mom did not care for me and gave me to people who also did not care. You are one of the lucky ones. I pray your mom will survive this, but if she does not, know that she gave you all she had to give.
Your diet will suffer through these times and its ok, because dieting is not important at a time like this. Good luck to you and your mom.

Vadim said...

Thank you Harry and October for your continous support. Nancy, you almost made me cry. And I dont like crying as it is too girly I was told,lol. Thanks for reading my nonsense and caring. It truly helps. Thank you guys!