Tuesday and too many cherries, damn it!

I was doing good all day long until night came in silently! I had a rouph day at work, too many things to do, too little time! I was like an energizing bunny without the energy! Tough to do. I dont know if it is adaptation period my body is going through or it is still a remnant of the intestinal crams, but I had no energy. It is strange for me, even people at work commented at how more subdued I looked. So when I came home I was really tired. I guess it is only logical to expect my body to rebel after all those heavy carb binges!!! I am getting closer and closer to starting my renewed walking regimen. My pedometer is almost here! I did aome weight lifting work out today earlier in the day. It was short but intensive. And I was quite impressed to being able to lift my old numbers, even thouhg I havent done it for few weeks. It is usually not that easy to return. Today I had an unstoppable appretite, yet managed to keep it relatively low carb until night when I ate liberal amount of cherries!

3 eggs
2 oz goat cheese
2 cans sardines
7 oz roasted beef
1 avocado
3 oz chicken salad
1 bison burger with large tomato and cucumber salad
grinded fresh cranberries sweetened with stevia and devinchi syrup
lots of cherries( love those, but it was way too much, got to stop it)

Monday's jouney!

I have been ill lately! All those post holidays carb binges, and I mean binges took a toll on my intestines and my body overall. I have exeprienced near-syncope at least twice in a week. My stomack has been distended, my intestines spasmatic and my hunger unstoppable. Even last night I felt sick. But..... Good news is I am back on low carb regimen. I made a home made veg soup yesterday and it turned out good, but I will stay away from it for a while. I think all thsoe vegetables, like brocoli and cauliflower didnt ease my already spasmatic intestines. I am still not journeling 100 % so instead I will just list what I atein general terms:

Vegetable soup( brocoli, zuchini, mushrooms, yellow sqyash and a can of sardines in tomato sause), ok may be it wasnt veg suop afterall, lol.

2 Bison burgers

1 protein shake
3 oz of goat cheese

4 eggs
2 cans of sardines
3 oz of chicken salad

WEIGHT = 233 POUNDS( FROM 215 2 MONTHS AGO!)

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I put an idea out there for fat flush two weeks liver cleanse! Few people asked me about it, here is a link: http://www.lowcarb.ca/atkins-diet-and-low-carb-plans/fat-flush-plan.html

To pug or not to pug! Fruit is out, vegetables is in!

I blew it again! I realized tow things: 1) fruit makes my cravings go throught the roof, so it is out for the time being 2) I cant wait too many hours between meals to go by 3) Harry is right and I must plan ahead 4) I am not getting a pug!

I wanted a pug puppy for teh longest time! This particular dog makes me salivate for getting one when I get to see him. A friend of mine has one. He is a clown, yet does it with a serious face. He loves to eat, a LOOOOOOOOOT! He loves being loved and will do anything to get it and to give it! He is an amazing little fellow! But this a deal! I cant get one! But I will get him only when and if I loose weight and start eating healthy! I thought by getting one I will be happirer. I wont, I will be fatter though. Today my cousin came crashing my house. He is a big time doctor. When I told him I couldnt eat the chocolate and cookies he brought over, he asked me why. I told him I was on a low carb diet! You should have seen his reaction. His voice pitch got higher as though someone castrated him, his eyes widened as though someone castrated him without anethtisia and his whole demeanor changed as thought I performed the castration. He called me all kinds of names! And the funniest one was how can an intelligent guy like you can do something as self-defeating, disease inducing and health destroying lifestile. Then a whole lecture on how people get hurt and have all kinds of vascular and kidney diseases followed. He is my favorite cousin, I love this dude. So we decided to agree to disagree and embarked on watching a football game drinking beer and eating..........shit! So I am off again! I am no goodskiy and no goodskiy is my eating! So goodskiy I need to be! I must start feeding my body instead of feeding my psycho evil fat cells. They are gaining an army of new soldiers, I must stop it immediately! It is getting out of control. I cant afford to get neqw fat cells in my body, if I do it will be impossible to defeat them then. We Russians had a joke back in Russia about ever going to war with Chinese. We decided not to and be their friends because it would be impossible to defeat them. Here is the joke "' By the time you kill the first 100,ooo troops the back rows will reproduce! It is a stupid joke, but back than Chiines population was reproducing so much they had to restrain by only allowing one kid for a family! So if I continue at this rate the joke wiil be on me and my fat cells will reproduce by the time I killthe first thousands of their brothers and sisters! So WAR IT IS AND WHAT TIME IS IT? IT IS A WAR TIME! I MUST CASTRATE MY WEKNESS, CURCUMSIZE MY CRAVINGS AND CULTUIVATE A NEW CULTURE OF WHOLE LOW CARB FOOD! CCC PLAN! CASTRATE, CIRCUMSIZE, CULTIVATE!

Going back to my original low carb my way roots!

The only time that low carb worked for me to perfection was a time that I ate liberal amount of food that I enjoyed. I did eat quite a lot of sugar-free chocolate and it did satisfy my cravings for sweets big time. I did eat plenty of vegetables and low carb fruits, such as berries and grapefruit, and I did lose weight. I was also exercising a lot. All those experiments worked, in a way! No, not in a weight loss department, quite contrary! It porved to me that listening to my body pays off much faster than listening to so called experts! No offence, Mr O carb, no offence Mr Vegetabless or Fruitless! Go with peace! I am reverting back to ME! No more dont eat this or try that! I know what i know and what I know is what my body telling me I know! I know that starchy carbs is a killer for me, it brings on a cascade of horrible concequences! I know that eating high fatty food makes me sick, proven beyound reasonable doubt! I did lose 14 pounds on fat fast, and I almost lost my mind as well. I know that relatively high protein, low carb, and relatively high omega 3 fatty acid consumption along with vegetable and low carb fruits worked for me and the most important I felt great! So I am going back to eggs, fish, chicken, cheese, buttermilk, nuts, vegs and fruits! And that is GOING BACK TO NATURE! MY NATURE! BTW I akways had a question to ask but havent had a chance. Why do so many low carb experts cite inuits and their great experience on 0 carb? Is it universal patented diet across the board? What worked for inuites for thousands of years may be very dangerous for many others! Just because someone follws low carb doesnt preclude them from being fanatical about it,they are just as nuts as those low fat nuts, whats the difference? Have they heard of cultural and enzymnatic differences? I love cold becuase I am Russian in many generations and I strive in cold climate. Does everyone else do too? Ok, enouph of that!


Today I still didnt eat quite as good as I shoul have: 6 eggs- 3 tablespoon of coconut oil- 10 chicken links- 3 oz of goat cheese- 3 cups of cottage cheese with stevia- 1 cup of mixed berries!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cc2hnupC_6E

Where does love reside? Who am I, what is it all about?

A friend of mine asked me today whats the purpose of life if there is no purpose? I thought it was me but he is married with children! I thought just by virute of having a happy family makes one a happy puppy! I thought if you love therefore you are! I guess what seems like happiness for one man is an illusion for another! I always insisted on everyone having a purpose, its just a matter finding one! It goes same for love! And lately I had to remind myself of that too. So my lifes purpose is to live and find it! So Vadim is ready for the mission of finding purpose and love! I am not yet ready for the menu posts yet, even though today was by far the best behaved day in few weeks. I am just going to list foods that I ate without counts. I need to step into the low carb world slowly and wisely. I have struggled with extreames all my life. i cant just head in full force into low carb waters yet, my body will rebel!

Today I ate: 3 whey protein shakes made with coconut milk and almond water along with sugar-free Devinchi caramel syrip; 2 eggs fried in coconut oil with 3 oz of chicken; 2.5 oz goat cheese; 30 or so cherries; immitation salad with mayo:


Here is something for you to read and think about:

Jack wakes up with a huge hangover after attending his company
Christmas Party. Jack is not normally a drinker, but the drinks went down easy. He
didn't even remember how he got home from the party.

Jack had to force himself to open his eyes,... the first thing he sees is a
couple of aspirins next to a glass of water on the side table with a single rose.

Jack sits up and sees his clothing in front of him, all clean and
pressed. He looks around the room and sees that it is in perfect order. So is the rest of the house.

He takes the aspirins, cringes when he sees a huge black eye staring
back at him in the bathroom mirror. Then he notices a note hanging on the corner
of the mirror written in red with little hearts on it and a kiss mark from his wife in lipstick:

'Honey, breakfast is on the stove, I left early to get groceries to make
you your favorite dinner tonight. I love you, darling! Love, Jillian'

He stumbles to the kitchen and sure enough, there is a hot breakfast,
hot coffee and the morning newspaper. His son is also at the table, eating.

Jack asks, 'What happened last night?'

'Well, you came home after 3 A.M., drunk and out t of your mind. You fell over
the coffee table and broke it, and then you puked in the hallway, and
got that black eye when you ran into the door.

Confused, he asked his son, 'So, why is everything in such perfect order
and so clean? I have a rose, and breakfast is on the table?'

His son replies, 'Oh THAT!.. Mom dragged you to the bedroom, And when
she tried to take your pants off, you screamed, 'Leave me alone, I'm married!!'

Broken Coffee Table $400.00
Hot Breakfast $8.00
Two Aspirins $. 40
Saying the right thing, at the right time. PRICELESS

A journey of a thousand miles begins with a first admittion! Am I ready to start walking again?!

I have so much to say, so many things to cover. However I had a very, very, very rouph couples of weeks. I did fall off completely from the low carb and self -medicated myself by indulging in enormous amount of food. I am still not completely over my issues but I am finally ready to see a professional counceler. I recently passed out at my place of work and was hospitalized for few days. I ate a big bowl of eggplant parmagen with a big double layer chocolate cake and drank two glasses of diet pepsi. Two hours later I had intestinal spasm, a heart rate of 210 and ended up in ER unconscious. Thats the bad news. The good news is that I was given a relative clean bill of health. So I am starting again slowly tomorrow. Thanks everyone!