Tuesday, January 6, 2009

A journey of a thousand miles begins with a first admittion! Am I ready to start walking again?!

I have so much to say, so many things to cover. However I had a very, very, very rouph couples of weeks. I did fall off completely from the low carb and self -medicated myself by indulging in enormous amount of food. I am still not completely over my issues but I am finally ready to see a professional counceler. I recently passed out at my place of work and was hospitalized for few days. I ate a big bowl of eggplant parmagen with a big double layer chocolate cake and drank two glasses of diet pepsi. Two hours later I had intestinal spasm, a heart rate of 210 and ended up in ER unconscious. Thats the bad news. The good news is that I was given a relative clean bill of health. So I am starting again slowly tomorrow. Thanks everyone!


Anonymous said...

Whew! Glad you're back and with a clean bill of health. No more scary hospital stays! That's an order! {{{{hugs for Vaddy}}}}

Vadim said...

That was indeed scary shit! The first thing that I said when i opened my eyes in emergency room to the nurse was " If thats how Heaven looks like I want to be back on earth" At that moment I knew i was going to be ok! I had major nervous break down! Between my work, family and unaccomplished goals did take a big toll on me. Despite my hyper and humorus nature I tend to get really down on myself at times and punish myself with food. I think in a way it was like seeking attention I guess. Whatever it was I must figure it out and i will now seek a professional help. I have been postponing it for a long while and it is way overdue! Where I come from it is considered a form of weakness to go to a shrink. I am used to deal with problems in hush-hush way. But hush -hush brought me to emergency room tow times now and to my nemesis carby overload. So no more hush-hush here, from now on its talk-talk! I am surrounded by estrogen everywhere anyway, might as well take advantage, right?

Harry said...

Sounds like a scary experience, Vadim. :( I'm sorry you had to go through that. On the other hand, if it helps to ultimately get you to a healthier place ... then maybe it's a blessing in disguise.

re: therapy

I've been through lots of therapy in my life. I know, for a fact, that it saved my life. I won't get into it too much of that here and now. But, maybe Jimmy will allow me to share that experience on Monday.

Anyway, I think it's a courageous move on your part - to seek out help. How can it be a sign of weakness to do something that you fear doing? How can it not be a sign of bravery if you're doing something that you know some people will look upon disapprovingly?

It's time to get yourself well, my friend. That includes mind, body and spirit. And there's a bunch of people out here that will help you to keep on just that track. You lead the way and we'll help push you when you feel tired. Deal?

Vadim said...

Deal! Thanks!

Erika said...

Welcome back, Vadim.

Harry makes some of the best points - it really COULD be a blessing in disguise. And therapy can be a really useful tool, so embrace that :)

No-one else needs to know if you don't want them too, they'll just notice a happier, healthier Vadim!



Vadim said...

Thanks Erika!

NewVision said...

You have really been through a lot. I'm sorry your road to recovery has been so hard for you. But you are on the right path my friend. Any road that will take you to a healthier / happier you is the right road.
Hang in there!
I'm glad you let us all know how you were doing. We missed you!!!!!!!

Vadim said...

Thank you, Newvision! BTW, I forgot your name, was it Jo? How are you doing? I had to follow your suit and pass out too, now we are both pass out buddies! We must watch each other backs. i am heading out to read up on your blog. I missed reading them.