Wednesday, January 7, 2009

Where does love reside? Who am I, what is it all about?

A friend of mine asked me today whats the purpose of life if there is no purpose? I thought it was me but he is married with children! I thought just by virute of having a happy family makes one a happy puppy! I thought if you love therefore you are! I guess what seems like happiness for one man is an illusion for another! I always insisted on everyone having a purpose, its just a matter finding one! It goes same for love! And lately I had to remind myself of that too. So my lifes purpose is to live and find it! So Vadim is ready for the mission of finding purpose and love! I am not yet ready for the menu posts yet, even though today was by far the best behaved day in few weeks. I am just going to list foods that I ate without counts. I need to step into the low carb world slowly and wisely. I have struggled with extreames all my life. i cant just head in full force into low carb waters yet, my body will rebel!

Today I ate: 3 whey protein shakes made with coconut milk and almond water along with sugar-free Devinchi caramel syrip; 2 eggs fried in coconut oil with 3 oz of chicken; 2.5 oz goat cheese; 30 or so cherries; immitation salad with mayo:

Here is something for you to read and think about:

Jack wakes up with a huge hangover after attending his company
Christmas Party. Jack is not normally a drinker, but the drinks went down easy. He
didn't even remember how he got home from the party.

Jack had to force himself to open his eyes,... the first thing he sees is a
couple of aspirins next to a glass of water on the side table with a single rose.

Jack sits up and sees his clothing in front of him, all clean and
pressed. He looks around the room and sees that it is in perfect order. So is the rest of the house.

He takes the aspirins, cringes when he sees a huge black eye staring
back at him in the bathroom mirror. Then he notices a note hanging on the corner
of the mirror written in red with little hearts on it and a kiss mark from his wife in lipstick:

'Honey, breakfast is on the stove, I left early to get groceries to make
you your favorite dinner tonight. I love you, darling! Love, Jillian'

He stumbles to the kitchen and sure enough, there is a hot breakfast,
hot coffee and the morning newspaper. His son is also at the table, eating.

Jack asks, 'What happened last night?'

'Well, you came home after 3 A.M., drunk and out t of your mind. You fell over
the coffee table and broke it, and then you puked in the hallway, and
got that black eye when you ran into the door.

Confused, he asked his son, 'So, why is everything in such perfect order
and so clean? I have a rose, and breakfast is on the table?'

His son replies, 'Oh THAT!.. Mom dragged you to the bedroom, And when
she tried to take your pants off, you screamed, 'Leave me alone, I'm married!!'

Broken Coffee Table $400.00
Hot Breakfast $8.00
Two Aspirins $. 40
Saying the right thing, at the right time. PRICELESS


Harry said...

A very good start, Vadim. Good for you!

I wish you well on your journey to find love and meaning. I feel really confident that you'll get to your perfect place in the sun.

This may not be true for everyone but I've found that meaning, love and most of what's "real" is more possible when we're not distracting ourselves with addictive and/or destructive behavior.

When we harm ourselves and seek to hide from reality ... God and all that is really good seems much further away.

BTW, I'm not hinting that I've reached my goal(s). Far from it. Everyday is a struggle. And that's even with all blessing I have to be thankful for. It's a day by day thing. I hope I'm around long enough to do something truly meaningful with my time in this beautiful world. Fingers crossed.

Day two is tomorrow. Keep climbing up. :)

Erika said...

Hi Vadim,

Finding the purpose to one's life is probably the most significant thing you could ever do.

Maybe you already know deep down inside what it is.

As for love, I hope you do find it again. But these things only happen when you're NOT looking for them (unfortunately). But it will happen, I'm positive :)

Vadim said...

Thank you guys for taking your time to comment. HArry and Erika you guys are true low carb warriors!