Thursday, February 12, 2009
Is there a Doctor in the house?
I relapesed big time! Since early October I had put on almost 30 pounds, despite continued exercise. I analized my behaviour so many times and yet all the right answers havent precluded me from doing the right thing. Yes, I did go see the doctor, actally few of them. One of them said I need to be on anti-depressant since my serotonin might be low. Lollypop of crap! There is no way to know that I am serotonin-deficinet,l accept the fact that I am a carb junkie. So what, I have been carb-junkie since I was 3 months old. Was I depresssed then? I was the happiest kid on campus. I still am at times! What I need to do is just cut out carbs completely! Period. No negotiating, no one bite of this or that. As a wise person once said, "One is too many, 100 is not enouph!!! I will look into some sort of meditation for sure, may be take some salsa lessons. I need to work less and play more! But again, my number one need is to completely abandon carbs! So without further a due, and with God's guidance I shall be back tomorrow to start my new life! I did it for 8 month until recent slip. I can and will do it again! I am growing my balls back. I need to get back. I really do, my body has been forgiving, but its getting enouph of my shit too. I feel the effects of all those yo-yos and binge eating and else. I need to give my liver a fresh start! I really must!