Monday, October 19, 2009

I feel like a giant today! NY Giant that is, beat up and not loved!

I dont like those days when sleep deprivationbecomes life deprivation! Today was one of those days. Lately, I havent felt right at all. I dont know whats ailing me? Is it stress? May be! Is it some kind of anxiety disorder? Possibly! Is it fibromyalgia? Ok, why not? Is it IBS? Who is to say? Is it lack of meaningful relationship and therefore lack of meaningful sexual life? lol, ok, may be not this one! So what in the world of Vadim's universe is it???????? Once my spiritual teacher told me that the most expensive things in life are mistakes? I couldnt get it then, I was too young, too cocky and too naive. I get it now. May be years of smoking and careless living was a mistake? You say! Aha, dude, you are a genius! I think it is my body telling me something but I cant pick it up and neither can doctors! But it could be a good thing. At times an absense of news is a good news. So may be, just may be iits a good thing that doctors dont know. But it bothers me to feel this way for a long time now and have no answers. But i am not giving up!!!!! Or no, too stubborn for that. So forward we march again! As far as my diet is comncerned, I have been somewhat of a good boy, suprisingly! I have been low carb except few occasions when I ate a bit of watermelong, but thats all. What I started enjoying a lot lately is my nightly ice cream! Yes, you heard me right, ice cream! I love ice cream, love it, love it, love it! But it is homemade low carb one. I make it out of protein shake and freeze it. Two hours beofre I get home my mom takes out of the freezer and when I hit home at around 1 am its semi-melted. I put chopped walnuts on it, some berries and whalooo, awesome! I think its just as awesome as having sex by myself! Oh, did I just say that? Ok, its awesome! I mix it with MRM strawbery-banana whey with half a can of cocnut milk and frozen strawberries plus a bit of heavy cream and stevia! It is goooooooood! And it has become my nightly treat. I actually look forward to it every day, havent yet gotten tired of it. As far as other things in my life, not much news which again could be a blessing! My Mom is still very weak and suffering a lot. But as long as God gives her strenght to go on, we will beat this thing called cancer. Its stubborn but so are we. Ok, thats about it in a nutshell!


One last thing, for anyone who wants to know what today felt like symtoms wise and otherwise here it is:

5 hours of sleep


pin and needle pain all over my extremeties
bloated stomach
IBS kind of symptoms which went away with poop
fatigue
tachycardia



I will start blogging about my diet soon! thanks for reading!

14 comments:

Jade said...

Just wanted to say hi and to let you know that you are very much appreciated and beloved by your readers, vadim. Hope you are feeling better soon. jade

Vadim said...

Thanks jade!

SheZug said...

Sorry you are still not feeling well. You know, Dr. Oz says a good sex life is very important to overall health. I wonder, does ice cream sex count? LOL

as a wise man told me not to long ago... REGROUP!

Angie said...

That ice cream... wow.. amazing!

Vadim said...

Hey shezug! For a second or two I wasnt quite sure who you are but I got it fast. Whats up? Thanks for checking in

Anonymous said...

I apologize for being a nag, but I still think that lack of magnesium is part of the problem...

It's great that you've created a fabulous treat! Low carb banana split:-)

~D

Vadim said...

I dont discount anything but I seem to be getting plenty of magnesium according to the fitday. However it might be a good idea to have it checked through the blood test just to make sure it is not magnesium deficinecy. Thanks!

Anonymous said...

Hi again, Vadim,

I'm relying on good ol' Dr. Eades in pushing magnesium. I also seem to recall from one of his books that blood tests rarely turn up a magnesium deficiency, but I can't remember the reason. Here's one of his posts extolling the virtues of magnesium supplementation.

~D

http://www.proteinpower.com/drmike/uncategorized/magnesium-and-inflammation/

Vadim said...

Thanks, I will buy and start taking 300 mg of magnesium at bedtime as Dr eades recommend. Lets see if it helps. I pray it was this simple, but then again at times it is that simple!

Harry/JP said...

Vadim,

If you can find magnesium bound/chelated to taurine - sometimes referred to as "magnesium taurinate" or "magnesium taurate" ... it may be worth picking up. The added taurine (an amino acid) could help with the anxious feelings and the racing heart rate.

I hope you're feeling better. The ice cream sounds great! :-)

Harry/JP said...

Probably way more than you'd want to read but ...

http://george-eby-research.com/html/taurine.html

Vadim said...

Thanks Harry, I will check it out!

Anonymous said...

Double thanks, Harry, for the magnesium link. I think this type may be more beneficial to me than the magnesium malate.

~D

stephanie said...

You poor guy! So sorry to hear about your insomnia. BTW, why are you getting home at 1 am? That is probably not helping your sleep cycle ;)
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